Maybe she dropped?

My belly feels lower for some reason I hope this means Ava decided to drop. I am still experiencing cramps and some pressure in my vaginal and rectal areas. I hope this means labor is coming soon. Randy's dad has been out of town and he gets back today so after today I am free to go into labor. I hope I get induced though. Its so much easier and faster. I will know what day and Randy can plan it off and I can start my maternity leave. I really am getting too stressed out about work. Its funny how you are the one who does everything and if you make a few mistakes you are the first person that gets pointed out. I really need a break and then I am going to decide if its better to look for another job. As much as I like my job, nobody appropriates me and I am not treated like I should be. Today Ava mobile comes in the mail. Its an ocean wonders mobile, it lights up fish on the ceiling. It was very hard to find at a decent price so I am so lucky. I cant wait to put in on the crib. The border gets put up this weekend. I am feeling so much better now that we are just about ready. I cant wait to see the child Randy and I made together. He is going to be a great father to both of our little girls. Well I hope everyone has a great day. Tonight is my last night of work and I am off for the weekend!

getting things ready, Tina, and odds and ends

Randy seems to think that next week is the week. I kind of think so too. We are getting the crib today since Walmart in Marion does not have it in stock. Probabl;y have to go to Columbus. Walmart sucks here! I am so ready for this baby.

Tina got new glasses yesterday. I had to pay for them and now I have to wait for Jeffs half. Who knows how long that will take. She got princess ones with little bows on the side they look so cute on her. I cant wait for her to get them. Should be in next week.

I think I am going to take Nikkias advice and go walking today. It might help. I also heard spicy foods, sex, nipple stimulation and c astral oil. I heard the oil is bad for you and the baby so that's out. The rest doesn't sound bad lol. I am sure there are a few Randy agrees with. I just hope this is over soon. I really need to have my body back. I think Randy would like to hug me without our daughter in the way. Well everyone have a great day! I am off to clean walk and whatever else I can do to get something started.

37 Weeks

I am now 37 weeks. I found out at my appointment that I am 2 cm dilated and fifty percent thinned out. I really hope this happens soon. We are almost ready. Hopefully we get the new crib today. I got the border in the mail yesterday. I still need a mobile and breastpump but other than that I think we are ready for our little girl. I think yesterday was a wake up call for Randy he finally realizes how close it is. I do too and I also know that Avas day is her day. I will throw people out if they talk about the name I will not mention. I am tired of taking a back seat to certain peoples baby and pregnancy. Ava will get her day! I mean my baby shower was not bad but there was alot of talk about someone elses baby when the day was suppose to be about Ava. I mean I have experienced worse. I was hooked up to an iv dehydrated in Er and all they could talk about was her perfect pregnancy and how she was afraid she was going to loose the baby when it came out. Ava will get her day! I am still having these pains so hopefully she is here soon. I have a feeling next week will be the week. I will keep everyone posted.

Nesting

Alright now I know I am getting close. I am getting so aggravated by the fact that everything is not ready. I am actually online right now writing a list of things I still need. I have been cleaning like crazy and cramping in the morning. I really think its a matter of time. Monday is my doctors appointment I am hoping he has some news. I hope I am thinned out or something. I really cannot wait to have this baby and finally get life in order. Randy doesn't get it because he is not the one who feels all the kicks and knows that at any second this baby could come and we are not completely ready. Its his first kid and he just doesn't get it. I am having crazy dreams too. Last night I dreamt of blood. I went to the bathroom and there was blood all over my hand and everywhere. Then I had the baby and she was fat! Somehow I hurt her, when I was trying to feed her. Then I woke up and realized I was having mensuration like cramps. I been having those every morning lately. I really hope this is my last weekend working 12 hour shifts. I don't know if I will be able to do it much longer. I am tired sore and my body is has had it. My legs are in constant pain. Resting does no good, walking does no good, bananas does no good, calcium does nothing either. Massage works for awhile. I am just tired and I am ready for this little girl to get here. Hopefully next week or the first week of December. I have my money on the first week of Dec. Well I am off to clean and price some more things. My husband and I need to talk. Have a great Thanksgiving! I have to work so I will try.

I think it's called hormones

Ok I am tired of being pregnant I cannot wait to have this baby. There are times when I am very moody. I think Randy and I may have our first real argument if I don't get a hold of myself. He is really annoying me. I feel like he criticizes everything I do. It could be just me, my body is going through alot as I get bigger. I am also super stressed out about having the baby, I really don't feel like I am ready, I am ready but I dont think I have everything. I wish we never bought this house sometimes because I think we would have everything right now. We are just now ahead on our bills but mortgage payment is coming and so is the baby and I really hope we get the few things we need before she comes. I just am so stressed and kind of depressed. Randy of course doesn't feel that way he is a guy he doesn't know what a baby needs. I have to tell him and I don't think he will get it til she is here. I love Randy but he has big changes coming and I don't think he realizes how much you change when you have a child. I just hope everything between us is the same. I really am scared that things will change. I think its because things changed between Jeff and I. Not in a good way either. A baby adds alot of stress to a relationship and I don't think he realizes that either. I guess I probably should talk to him about these things but I am afraid I will cry .My emotions are up and down all around even. Well if anyone has any advice feel free to give it I need all I can get. I am really open.

35 weeks

I am 35 weeks pregnant!! I am getting there. I cannot wait for Ava to get here so I can hug my husband again without my belly in the way. I am sure he is looking forward to it too. The heartburn is here now I cant hardly eat anything with tomato sauce or anything spicy. I can feel the burn all the way to my throat. It will be ok though only a few more weeks. Well I am off to fix our check book. I am like a Secretary for our finances or something.

I usually have all the anwers

I am usually the one who has all the anwsers when it comes to my kid and I am amazed by how stumped I am. Christina is going through alot right now, New Stepfather, New Sister, Going to school, Father in Iraq for 15 months, and I went back to work recently. Thats alot for a five year old to deal with. Well anyway last night she was horrible and if you know my child you know that she is very well mannered and behaved. She refused to get out of the bath tub. She started talking like a baby and crying. It took an hour to finally get her in bed. I just cried my eyes out. I asked Randy what I was doing wrong. As usual he reassured me that she is just going through alot and we will have these nights. I hope she knows that I love her and if there is anyone in the world she can talk to its me. I may not know everything and I cant fix everything but I give good hugs and I love her like nobody else does. I am sure I am over worrying. I am just going to give her extra attention and make sure she knows I am here for her. Randy is going to do the same.

Doctors appointment

Yesterday I had my 34 week check up. Lately everyone has been telling me how I only look 5 months pregnant. It got me a little worried so I asked Brenda if she was worried and she told me I just carry babies well. Everything looked good, the babys heart was good and I was measuring right on. Brenda also told me how they had a meeting in the morning with their students that they are teaching and they mentioned my HG case and how my insurance would not help me. I cant believe I am a training tool lol. I guess one good thing came out of my HG besides Avanelle. Brenda told me that next time she sees me I will be in the safe zone and ready to pop at anytime. I really hope it doesnt happen at work. I will have to wait for someone to release me and that could suck. I think I just want induced, but I dont get to make that decision. I am now 160. I gained a pound in the last few weeks. I went from 154 to 134 then I went back up to 154. Now I am finally 160. So in all if you count gaining it back , which that's how the doctor counts it I have gained 6 pounds from my original weight.

I have to work all weekend long and Monday so I wont be on here alot. I am exhausted now. After I take Tina to school I plan to try to sleep for an hour more or so. Brenda told me to rest when I can. Well I hope everyone has a great weekend. I know I will try to. I have to work 24 hours out to 48. I am off next weekend I cant wait.

Tina and school

I had my first teacher conferance and I have to say that I was very pleased. My daughter is doing great. She is already showing improvement from the beginning of the year. I am so proud. I dont take all the credit though she has a great teacher and a great stepdad. Of course there are areas she needs help in like every child. We will work hard to improve those areas.

On a bad note, Marion City Schools did not get their levy passed. The bad part is that it was old money. They were not asking for new money. I cannot begin to understand why. There are so many reasons why the levy should have passed. First the most important reason. the children. Then you look at Marions economy and it would do so much better if we had some better jobs in Marion. No business wants to move into Marion with these school issues. Also when you look at what public school means we are going to pay for it one way or another thats why its called public. Right now the schools are borrowing from the state and we have to pay that back with interest and when it all is said and done we are going to pay a hell alot more then if we would have passed the levies. I guess its going to take major cuts for people to get it. I disagree on how we get the money for the schools but life is not fair and sometimes you just have to deal with it. I am just ashamed I guess to live in a town where people care more about being right then our childrens education. These small people are going to be running this town someday and if they are not well educated we are going to be in trouble. In my opinion education is the foundation of everything. We teach ignorance then thats what we end up with. I am going to teach my daughter how you cant win every situation and sometimes you have to pick your battles. While I disagree with raising property taxes, I see the big picture and that is my daughter needs an education and money is not all that important when it comes to that.

My weekend and crazy me

Randy and I painted the baby's room. We are not expert painters or anything but the room looks nice. I am glad to see things coming together. I went to the surprise party for my grandma, only to be shocked to see that she was smoking. I guess the talk is coming soon. I am really not looking forward to it. I am very upset with my relatives they should of been respectful and not smoked around her. They all know how hard it is to quit. I did not stay long at the party the smoke was enough to kill you. Plus the drinking my relatives do I cannot tolerate. I was tired too. So Randy and I went home and spent the evening alone. Christina stayed at my moms. My mom left early too so she was not at the party very long. I started having false labor contractions and I had them off and on on Sunday. I had a few this morning but nothing progressive. I really think I will be lucky to make it til Dec. Especially since I am having false contractions already. My body just aches constantly and I cant wait for it to be over. I am ready to hold that baby. ( I became an aunt over the weekend too.)

I found out today that I left my keys at Randy's moms house. I have to work today and I have no way of getting there. I cannot believe me. Its ok I don't really need my car til tomorrow. Hopefully Randy can get my keys while I am at work. I cant believe I forgot my coat with my keys in it. I really hope they still are there. Thats my only copy. Well I guess I am off to take Tina to school. I hope I have a better day with my contractions.

My Busy Weekend

My weekend is going to be very busy! Saturday is my baby shower and a surprise party. Sunday is the day we want to start painting, and over top of it all my brother is having my little niece today. I hope I get to see her. I dont see my brother much so I am not sure if it will happen or not unless I go to the hospital. So many things to do and so little time to do them in. Well I am off to visit with family! They came down for my baby shower and the surprise party. I have not seen my cousin since I was 16.