Still now feeling well

I have a nasty cold from hell. The whole trashcan is filled with tissues. I haven't felt this bad since I worked at Tri rivers daycare. I slept most of the day yesterday. I also, did not bring Randy lunch like I do everyday.

Today, I have to train for the managers job. Its mainly paperwork. I am a fast learner so it should be a piece of cake. Then, I have to take one of my clients to the YMCA and pick up the others from basketball. I probably wont get home til 9 or so. Then I am going to cuddle up with Randy and go to bed.

Long Weekend

It was a long weekend. I had to work third shift 12 hours. I was really sick too. I have a nasty cold. Sunday, I tried to go home and get some rest, forget it, it wasn't happening. My phone kept ringing and ringing. I finally answered it only to find that I had to go into work in the morning at 6.

Also, I took the job, they offered me more money plus a company cellphone. I told them it was a trail run. I don't intend on taking the job permanently. So I guess you can call me Manger Chasity.

I think since I am off the rest of the day I am going to relax and sleep for awhile. I am going to worry about cleaning after I rest.

Changing my mind

Ok you know how I said yesterday I was going to give the job a try? Well forget it. I will be getting paid the same and with more responsibility. I feel kind of disappointed. I will be ok though. There are more important things besides money. I think my family is much more important. Christina is going to school next year and she needs me. Randys friend is going to Iraq and he needs me. I still earned the promotion, just decided not to take it.

I cant wait til tonight. I finally get to spend some time with Tina and Randy. I have like two meetings this morning, but after that I am ready to do things. Well I am off to my meetings.

"Your Much Too Beautiful and Loved to be sad"

Well its going to be a crazy day. I work second shift tonight. I hate second shift I feel like I miss out on the day. I really miss Tina and Randy when I am at work.

I am worried about taking my promotion. I am afraid that I wont get as much time with Tina and Randy. I mean I don't feel like I have enough time with them now. I guess when I look at it I never could have enough time with the both of them.

I think I have pretty much made my decision. I am going to announce at my meeting tomorrow that I am going to take the job on a trial basis. That way if I cant handle it them I will be able to step down.

I think I will make alot of good changes for my clients. Give them more options and try to make their life at their home much more enjoyable. As manager I have to live for that.

I cannot believe how much I have accomplished in 6 months. I got rid of all the toxic in my life, (Jeff), I met the man of my dreams, my daughter turned five and is almost ready for Kindergarten, I got a raise last month , a promotion this month, I am getting my divorce final in the next month or so, getting engaged to the man of my dreams, and planning a wedding, I don't know what I was soo depressed about. I have it better than most people. I guess it goes back to what Randy said "You're much too beautiful and loved to be sad" or something like that. That's a good example of why I love him so much. He is always there encouraging me and being there.

So I guess I will start thinking of what he said when I get overwhelmed. I think I will be overwhelmed with happiness instead of sadness.

"You're much too beautiful and loved to be sad"

I was offered the manager's job at work.

I was offered the managers job at work today! I kind of seen it coming. Now I have to decide if I am going to take it or not. I guess I will get paid salary. But, that means that I will work more hours and have tons more responsibility. I will have lots of paperwork, grocery shopping, doctor appointments, money managing to do. If anyone is actually reading my blog please let me know what you think.Leave me a comment. I really earned this, but I wonder if I am ready to do that job? My bosses seem to think I am. I have til Friday to decide.

Just my Opinion and my weekend

It has came to my attention that some people are not pleased by what I write in my blog. I really dont care. I guess thats why its called Chasitys blog. Anyway, its just my opinion and my feelings, if you cant take it then please dont read it.

On a brighter subject, I had a great weekend. Randy took me for breakfast dinner and to a movie.. He was trying to make me feel better. I think he did a great job. It wasnt all the places Randy took me that made me feel better, it was more the care he showed me. He let me cry on his shoulder. I have never had this in my life from any man. I mean my father abandoned me when I was a baby. All the other men in my life have left one way or another. I come to realize that the only man I can trust is Randy.

I cant believe that my baby is going to school soon. I mean its a matter of six months. That's not very long at all. I really don't want her to go. Not because I don't want her to learn and to make friends. Only because it means she is getting older and is going to need me less and less. I guess its part of life, they don't stay small forever. One thing she is going to have to live with is the fact that no matter how big she gets she is my baby, my first and only baby.

Well that's enough of my rambling for one day. Remember if you cant take other peoples opinions, don't read their blogs.

Valentines Day 2007

Valentines day really sucked. Randy and I had these great plans but the weather ruined it. We were going to go to The Warehouse to eat then spend some alone time at home. Well instead we stayed home and cuddled on the couch. I really enjoyed it. I think that was the best present he could possibly gave me. So I guess it wasn't really that bad. I cant wait til next year, its going to be alot better.

Snowy Day

Today is a very snowy day. I really hate snow. We are suppose to get a foot of snow. I hope the snow does not ruin my plans with Randy. We are suppose to go to the Warehouse to eat. Its a real nice Italian restaurant. Hopefully things work out.

I finally found Tracey today!! I am so excited she was like my best friend. I got her phone number and everything. Finally I have one of my friends back. I

I wish everyone could love the person they are with like I love Randy. I really think people would stay together forever like they promise the day they get married. I know I am not married to Randy but like I have explained before it feels like it. Lets look at the definition.

Main Entry: mar·riage
Pronunciation: 'mer-ij, 'ma-rij
Function: noun
Etymology: Middle English mariage, from Anglo-French, from marier to marry
1 a (1) : the state of being united to a person of the opposite sex as husband or wife in a consensual and contractual relationship recognized by law (2) : the state of being united to a person of the same sex in a relationship like that of a traditional marriage marriage> b : the mutual relation of married persons : WEDLOCK c : the institution whereby individuals are joined in a marriage
2 : an act of marrying or the rite by which the married status is effected; especially : the wedding ceremony and attendant festivities or formalities

The definition even says its just a legal piece of paper. In my opinion we are already joined as one the day we said "I love you" . Ever since then we have been inseparable. I really love him. So I guess its all based on opinion. If you feel married and you treat each other like your married then you are.

Messy Tina

Messy Christina

I tried I really did. I tried to do shaving cream writing with Christina. It didnt work real well. She got it everywhere. I mean everywhere. I had to take her a bath. I wish I had a picture, you would not believe the mess. I was kind of upset about it , needless to say I got over it. I love that little girl. I couldn't be mad at her long. I guess thats part of being a mother.

Hocking HIlls

We went to the Hocking Hills this weekend for my birthday. I have to say it was the best b-day present ever. It was soo beautiful. Randy and I had a hard time leaving. I was so excited because we know that we want to get married down there. I am going to be posting some pictures. Randy did a great job picking the hotel and the places that we went to. I felt so special. Well my birthday is the fifth so make sure you wish me Happy Birthday.