2 Dpo

I feel nothing. I am still experiencing cm.So I guess we could just bd in case my ovulation date is wrong. Randy is convinced it is right and that I am just over thinking things. I really just want to not worry about it. So I am getting deep into my two weeks. I test on October 6th very excited about that date. By then I would of had my period or not. If not then I will test. I am not going to be a test addict this cycle. It really does not help things. No symptoms this early. I am not going to drive myself crazy. I am just going to focus on life and not ttc. I am putting myself in the mind set that it will happen or it won't not the end of the world.

3 years today!!!!

Well I want to start with yesterday. I woke up and I had a ton of cm. So I tried to get hubby home early. It almost did not work due to trains. I think we got the job done though. I just hope we can try again tonight. This might be our cycle? I have no idea but baby dust to me!

Today is my three year anniversary. I went out and bought a cake and a new bed set. If we are going to make a baby we need to do it with a nicer set. I think we may stay home and enjoy our kids and later each other. What a great three years! Very happy with it. I hope for many more with the man that lights up my life. What do I want for my anniversary? A late present a baby!!!!!!

CD 10

Today I start looking for ovulation. Yesterday I had some cervical fluid. But I do not feel my temp has dropped or that I actually ovulated. I do however think it is coming. I have been pretty relaxed this cycle I am willing to let it happen and not worry so much. It does not help that my gastritis is acting up. So I have pain my my stomach. I guess I just got to pay attention. We will get it this time. Here me go. Ovulation test at 2 pm and 10pm. We can do this!

We are a packaged deal

My husband and I have had alot of conflicts with family over the past couple years. Both sides have expressed dislike of us being together. Or they have not accepted the fact that we are married. What do I say to that? Get over it. We are not going anywhere. We are in this til death do us part. If you do not like me or my husband then I do not want to be around you. We only want positive people in our lives. Yes this was a group decision not one that I only made. So tired of getting blamed for my husband's actions. People think I am control him or something. He is a big boy. He and I are able to talk about things and agree upon them.

As for family gatherings, right now they are not for us and our family. I do not feel comfortable and I do not feel very wanted. I do not want to be around people that may turn on me any second and bring up my past. I have made a ton of mistakes. Randy knows about them all and loves me despite of them. He knows how hard it has been on me to not have a relationship with my mother or father. He knows how that hurts me and he will not tolerate anyone throwing that in my face. Would you go to a place where you know you are not wanted? No you would not. I should not be expected too either. Since I cannot go then my family will not go either. We are a package deal. If one of us are not welcome then none of us will go.

What could make this situation better? Treating me with respect. Not making fun of my parenting. Not being rude to me. Letting me raise my own kids without interference. I guess treating me like I am family. Because I am not going anywhere. Time for people to get use to it.

Cassie's weeding, my date, and CD 6!

I was so happy yesterday. I still am. My sister Cassie and I went shopping for her wedding dress and brides maid dresses. So much fun! I am so glad we are finally becoming close!

Tonight is my hot date! Randy and I are going out. I might get a new sexy outfit to surprise him with. My sister is sitting with the kids. When I get home I am going to take them home then Randy and I are going to finish our evening. I am so excited!!

CD 6 Period done now waiting to ovulate! I got to start making sure I am temping the same time everyday!

Beginning of a new cycle.

Yesterday Af came. I was ok with it. I was way beyond ready to start again. Last cycle was just a mess. I am hoping this one will be better. I am really not even sure if I ovulated. I never seen a positive test like I did other cycles and my period came very late. So no May baby. I am hoping for a June baby! I am so excited about moving on. So today is CD2 and I am in pain and bleeding very heavy. It will not be long and we will be trying yet again.

What I want to do different this cycle,
1. pin point ovulation better
2. No douche just preseed and soda
3. Try instead cups.
4. Do not become a poas addict
5. No testing til 14 dpo
6. Stay busy no stress!
7. have an organism all the way!
8. Make love not have sex
9. Be the best mom I can be this month
10. Just let is happen. No stress this is suppose to be fun.

So I am ready. We are going to catch that egg this month! So now we are waiting to ovulate.

Frustration when you know something but cannot get it confirmed!

I am know I am pregnant at this point. There is no mistaken it. I have officially missed my period. I am feeling sick when I do not eat right away. I am tired all the time. My legs ache. Why won't a test show what I know? Who knows. Hopefully tomorrow I take one and it does. Ugh!!!! I just want to tell the world but can't til my test comes up. My fingers are crossed for tomorrow. I know I am without a doubt. I think I am sure it is not in my head. I cannot wait to confirm out baby #3.

11 dpo! Still no period!

So I am still feeling very optimistic. Also confused. I was so tired yesterday that my legs were killing me. I pass out on the couch. Randy let me sleep for two hours. I felt bead because we were suppose to spend some time together on the front porch. Once again I was out for the count! I got up and we went to bed. I slept like a baby. I woke up early worried my period might have started. Sure enough no.Still has not started. I know I have been taking vitamin bb and it can make your lutual phase longer. That would not explain feeling sluggish all the time! I am still very optimistic at this point regardless of the negative tests. Still might be too early. I am keeping my fingers crossed that this is ti!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

DPO 10 Negative!!!!!!!!!!

I was all hoping that I would test this morning and find out I am indeed pregnant. Especially after all the tiredness I felt yesterday. I barely could finish grocery shopping. Today is when I was expecting my period. No period. Cramps but no period. I am still so tired. I have to run out in a bit to go get some cheap pregnancy tests. I want to keep testing until I get my period or til I get a positive. Something tells me I am. But my mind keeps trying to tell me I am not. I keep second guessing myself. Thinking these symptoms are not real. I cried yesterday for no real reason. Today I am slightly better but still a little moody. I just want this so bad. But I am okay with starting the next cycle. At this point I want something to happen! I want to get a positive test or start over. So I am on day 24 and nothing. Well I am off to cook dinner. I will keep updating this.